So after introducing u too my girls.... Let me tell u a little about myself..... Like i said im a scorpio girl (lol gotta love those scorpio girls) which by the way i think are the most colourful charasmatic creatures under the zodiac... whats so weird and wonderful about scorpios u ask??? sexual, powerful ,intense, determination, intuitive, they say a scorpio has eyes that can look straight thru u, and see ur soul..... On the down side resentful, spiteful and jealous, oh hell yes i am one of the most jealous bitches you will ever meet, a fact im not to proud of, but thats what athena starworman tells us, so jealous we must be..... Actually i dont think i have painted a true enough picture of myself, in all honesty i think im more like ally mcbeal im skittish, talk to myself, dont know left from right, and have some form of chemical imbalance....
For me personally life started at the age of 14 when i me my girls, before that, i was a pretty shy girl, meeting Charlie in particular bought me out of my shell.... I left school when i was 16 ( to fuck, honest) well i didnt officially leave i just stopped going, without any qualifications (dumb ass).... I remember my mum used to say "u dont know how good u got it at school" i was like yeah mum i heard it all before, DAMN she was right who would have guessed.... My science teacher mr howard used to say "Kim buck up, ur failing" my reply " u dont need an education to flip hambugers at mc donalds" so guess what happens next, yip u guessed it i worked full time at mcdonalds.... Oh yeah and in between all that i met Reeve, Reeve was sexy as hell, sporty as, 3 yrs older than myself, and a great guy with a mean as personality, oh and did i mention he had a 6 pack and fine ass mates as well.... lol..... he was perfect, my first real relationship.... Well as u do when ur young and in love, we fucked like rabbits and things were pretty good.... OK so where am i up to left school at 16, worked fulltime at mcdonalds at 17, pregnant at 18, gave birth at 19, and solo mother at 20.... Wow when u put it like that im a fucking success,....
So now im 20 and have a beautiful daughter named chassity, Reeve moved to a different country, why??? to this day im still not to sure of the exact reasons, i know a little bit, but not all.... I dont want to know it all either, its too painful, i cried for at least a week after he left... i consoled myself with food, didnt get out of bed, my mother looked after my cass (daughter), my world as i knew it had ended the day he left, leaving me with "what the fuck do i do now"..... All i had was a sad depressed me , a crying baby asking where her daddy is, and big question mark over our uncertain future...
When you plan a life with someone, and u wake up and realise its not going to be like that, u find yourself alone, alone and empty, alone empty and with a baby.... i faced my worst nightmare when i came to that realisation, and even contimplated commiting sideways but i knew i just couldnt do that to my cass so it was quickly struck off my list of options.....
That was 2 years ago, and since then i have found a whole new different life, I found the happy go lucky chick everyone knew and loved, and have reclaimed the " other half of me " i lost 2 years earlier.... And while on the subject have found out a few reasons why he left, although we fought alot i knew there had to be more due to His behaviour the weeks prior to his exit from our lives.... More to come later on that
As for life as a solo mother ..... well my girl is now nearly 3, motherhood is great , still weird, but great most of the time.........
But moral of the story, im 22, i have a beautiful little girl, im alive and well, and after going thru a pile of shit i came out clean on the otherside..... I credit my girlfriends for that who each had there bit to say, but Maya in particular, for which i will be eternally greatful.....
THORT FOR THE DAY: a life without love is a life half lived....
THORT FOR THE DAY 2: In true dunedin style "ahhhh get over it
-kim